Eiki the Saint

Last night when I got home I sunk into my chair and started to talk to God.  I sat in the darkness of our bedroom feeling sorry for myself and feeling far from God. I sit there listening to God and I felt a desperate need for God. A hunger for intimacy. This brought a realization that being off my schedule has left me wanting. At this point I felt that I would listen to some music so I flipped open my laptop and opened itunes and looked at my music. I saw an album there that I have not yet listened to. So I opened the album folder and just clicked a random song. This is not my normal way of listening to music. I normally play an album from the beginning. So I notice the song is over 8 minutes long. The first 4 minutes or so of the song were filled with music only. No lyrics. Then around 4 and half minutes the voice kicks in and the lyrics rang through my being like very voice of God was speaking to me. The song is ´I will Possess Your Heart´ by Death Cab for Cutie and the lyrics go something like this: 

 How I wish you could see the potential, the potential of you and me 

 It´s like a book elegantly bound, but in a language that you can´t read — just yet

You gotta spend some time — love,  you gotta spend some time with me

And I know that you´ll find — love, I will possess your heart.

I will possess your heart

There are days when outside your window, I see my reflection as I slowly pass

And I long for this mirrored perspective, when we´ll be lovers, lovers at last

You gotta spend some time — love,  you gotta spend some time with me

And I know that you´ll find — love, I will possess your heart.

I will possess your heart

 You reject my advances and desperate pleas

I won´t let you, let me down so easily, so easily

You gotta spend some time — love,  you gotta spend some time with me

And I know that you´ll find — love, I will possess your heart.

I will possess your heart 

 

It is all about time. Find what a man pursues and you will find the mans heart. I am so thankful that it does not take as long these days to sense the slightest change in my relationship with God. More importantly I am thankful that He loves me so much and desires to possess my heart.

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